Mechanical Masturbation

I masturbated at least five time yesterday.
i touched myself to at least 50 porn websites.
Each one had pictures and videos of women who would moan when the man got close to her.
She would say things like "I love to eat married Cock." and "Oh, professor, get your dick in deeper."
And the guy would just stand there with his dick out of his pants pumping away, no skill involved.
The last time, I got bored of looking at the porn so i turned the computer off with my dick still in my hand.
i went to the shower and turned the water on to a comfortable temperature. I striped off my clothes and walked into the shower and started to rub my penis up and down very fast as i was accustomed to doing.
i could feel the climax coming very soon, so i started to pump myself harder.
Finally i let it all go, and i felt a moan rise from my throat. then i thought of that woman in the video i saw earlier, and i felt embarrassed. then i looked at my hand pumping the sticky white sperm out of my urethra, and i felt mechanical.
i washed off my body with a bar of soap and turned off the water. i dried myself and put on some clothes from the hamper that didn't smell as bad as the others.
I looked around my room and realized that i was the only one there, and that made me sad.