perfect

i said "Hey, wanna go out with me? i will treat you real nice...?
she said "Maybe, there are somethings that we need to work out before we are together"
i said "i know i make you feel awkward when i leave you; and the sex we have is always embarrassing. what if we fixed that?'
she said "Maybe, yeah. if we can work that out we can go out. it wont be perfect, but love never is.
Work it out quick ok?"

r.

i went home last night at 6:00 and my mom was really sick. she told me to go take a shower because i smelled like cigarettes real bad. so i shaved in the shower and left it patchy.
i passed out pretty soon after that because i didnt know what else to do with myself.
in my dreams i still felt embarrassed and could almost taste your menthol kisses.
i woke up this morning with a patchy beard and a nicotine craving for menthol cigarettes....i miss you too.

Oh...sorry, i didnt quite catch that.

You're passed out in the living area of your college appartment
Sleeping bag zipped up to your neck to keep from the cold.
You're looking for protection, affection, a standing ovation.
Telling yourself every chance you get, Im bad news...
(Shrug)
My Heart and Ego are trying to occupy the same place.
Labor Costs have been cutting us down
and one of the two have to be let go....
(Fuck)
One pulls a knife and stabs the other dry.
The victor leans in real close and whispers-
"I never could have done this without you"
He walks over to his sleeping body...Dreaming
Pulling out miles of veins to bind them together.
With too much thinking and feeling, one never has much time
for eating and exercise.
Inverse

what....?!?!

shave.......be responsible for once.
its hard to stand up for yourself in this world.
i told her, "i love how the fog rises from the lakes in winter."
she smiled and told me that sometimes the ducks stay all year
"They look like Ghosts in the water"
Oooo...your real cute
i blush and move closer to those lips
never getting full understanding of their anatomy.
she is so beautiful...
but the job i work makes me feel inferior-
somehow it doesn't matter.

???

lately i have been feeling that there is more than being human
but this body is all i have ever known
and through these human eyes i have seen the world around me
and with this human heart have i only felt
but im my dreams i am something more
and i cant seem to comprehend
what more can there be?

round two

if i had any sexyness still inside me
it left with my mother opening the door to me masturbating
it doesn't help that last night
you sat inside me
and i tried to move, but was immobilized
by your cuteness
and lack of social skillz
most men are just looking for something to stick it in
and im not going to say im not sex crazy
but the awkwardness is something more
for me
to step aside
the sexual
aspect
and look at a bigger picture

what? no way, you cant be seriouse

having sex with you is like a death wish for blue balls.
you sat on top of me for 10 minutes, and i was still inside.
i held my hands over my face out of embarrassment
awkward love begets awkward sex
the most awkward sex ever